Monday, May 30, 2022

Mom's Memorial - Jeannie Pankey

Leslie Jean Lombard Pankey – 


Jean Pankey was born to Leslie Walter Lombard and Barbara Roy Lombard in Cripple Creek, Colorado on July 4, 1933, where her father was working in the mines.  At an early age they moved to Eaton, her mother’s hometown.   At the age of 3, after attending a birthday party, she became ill and,

after the ordeal of finding a hospital who would take her, she was admitted to a Denver hospital and diagnosed with polio.  She was in and out of hospitals for lengthy stays for much of her early childhood and the disease left her with one leg being 3 inches shorter than the other. 

 

This obvious mark of an insidious disease slowed her down but didn’t stop her.  She was working at a movie theater in Eaton when she met her future husband.  They married immediately following her graduation from Eaton High School in June 1951 and moved to Greeley.  During their marriage they lived in Greeley, Boulder, California (briefly), and back to Greeley in 1962 where they bought a 100 year old house on 3 acres on the north end of Greeley.   Over the next 47 years they raised two daughters, and tended numerous dogs, cats, horses, cows, ducks, turkeys, all of whom were named “Pedro.” 

 

In the 1960-70s she was actively involved at Greeley First Evangelical Free Church (now Christ Community) and the Greeley Christian Women’s Club leading Friendship Bible Studies.  Later, she was an active member of the Greeley Wesleyan Church now known as Generations Church.  In the early 1970s she began praying weekly with two women.   Other women joined them through the years and they prayed together weekly for nearly 40 years.  Jean joined a small group of women in founding the Greeley Women’s Ministry Center where she was active on the steering committee, and led Bible studies and journaling classes over the years. The WMC and the friendships she formed were her lifelines and she practically lived at the Center.  But, she was a lifeline to others as well.  She was known as a woman of prayer and often she would receive a call from someone she didn’t even know asking her to pray for them.

 

Also, in 1977, Jean started journaling, a practice that continued through 2014.  She kept two journals simultaneously.  One was her version of a diary.  The other was a documentation of what God was teaching her or personalized paraphrases of scripture.   There are 92  journals in total.  Often Jean would write personalized paraphrased scripture as an encouragement for others going through trials.  She would keep one copy in her journal and give the other to the person.  Two entire journals documented her study on the names of God.

 

Jean loved dance, but could not dance herself due to the effects of polio.  She loved watching anyone dance and remarked to her Journaling class at the WMC that one day she would dance with Jesus, a comment she made often.  She also wrote about it in her journal entitled “My Year To Dance” where she focused on the how her relationship with God was akin to a dance.   

 

Here’s an excerpt from Mom’s Journal, February 2, 2005
“I just finished reading Ken Gire’s book The Divine Embrace.  In it he pictures our relationship with You, Jesus, as the dance - one that is a close and intimate. I am glad now that I have never experienced a close romantic dance with anyone, even my husband. I am saving my first dance for Jesus. Even now I experience it in my heart. Thank You, JESUS.

“Jesus holds me close, looks into my eyes and reads my heart. He whispers how He loves me. He makes the dance of life a joy. He takes the lead and enables me to follow.  Even in the difficult demanding steps, He is there with His powerful arms around me. He doesn’t mind when I step on his toes and even when I stumble and fall, He is quick to pick me up, brush me off and get me right back into the rhythm of His grace. There is freedom in dancing with Him, there is excitement as He is so spontaneous. I may not know the new steps or the direction, but I can trust him to guide me on one step at a time.  He calms my fears and encourages me to relax and enjoy the music of the dance, but mostly He wants me to treasure him for who He is. He is Lord of the Dance and He has chosen me to be his partner, because He loves me!

 

Although Roy and Jean lived on their three acres on “C” Street for 47 years, she was not attached to the house, or to any material things.  Two things that Jean should be remembered for are praying and giving.    She learned to tithe from Roy early in her Christian life and was faithful to always give to God first - a lesson she passed on to both daughters.  Even in death, she prescribed that 10% of her estate be given as a final tithe. 

 

Although the effects of Post Polio Syndrome left her with a weak body and genetics robbed her of her memory she remained a sweet spirit, a gift to those who cared for her.  She is dancing with Jesus and singing the love song that He wrote just for her. 

 

She died on Saturday, October 16, 2021 at the age of 88.  Jean was preceded in death by her husband and her younger sister.    She is survived by her two daughters, son-in-law, two grand children and a grandson-in-law.

 

Much of this eulogy are facts about Mom, however we'd like to take a quick minute to share memories of her personality.  As a family we’ve collected a few rememberences to share about who she was.

  • She wasn’t a good cook, and never claimed to be.  Rather, she said, she assembled food!
  • Having a 4th of July birthday, she loved marching bands, parades, and fireworks.  She thought of them all public celebrations for her birthday. 
  • She loved crafting and belonged to the “Craft of the Month” club for years.  She also hooked rugs, did needlepoint, and knitted afghans, dresses, and sweaters.
  •  She loved birds and kept a pair of binoculars at home and in her car to get up close and personal with passing hawks, owls, blue jays, etc.
  •  She loved baseball and made it a point to take her grandkids to the very first Rockies season opening game. She would faithfully watch baseball games on TV and, simultaneously, listen to the radio because she didn’t like the TV commentary. 
  • She embraced technology and bought a computer when it became economically viable.  She bought a greeting card program and made 100s of personalized cards for friends and family. 
  • She loved music – especially movie and theater musicals.  Because she couldn’t dance, she took particular joy in movies with Gene Kelly and Fred Astaire.  She  knew, and sang along with, every line in movies like Camelot, Singin’ in the Rain, White Christmas, and more. She passed this on to her daughters.  She listened to records and the radio continually, sang in the church choir, and whistled all…the…time.

·         Finally, although she was a sweet, agreeable woman, she could be a woman of determination.   Two examples: 

o   First, she loved to travel and wanted to visit her pen-pal of 40 years in England.  She saved nickels and dimes and announced to Dad that she was going to England and he could come if he wanted to, but she was going.  He went.

o   Secondly, one month after Dad died she decided to move off the homestead and marched into Fox Run apartments and announced that she wanted a 1 bedroom apartment on the 2nd floor near the elevator on the east side.  She made the move, never looked back, enjoying every minute.  


Below is the video we created to help tell her story.  






My Prayer – Psalm 65

 

November 4, 1998

My Prayer – Psalm 65

Notes from a study of Andrew Murray’s book “Abide in Christ.”

 

Psalm 65:1-13 (paraphrase, personalization and application)

1.  Lord I know that I do not stand in silent submissive wonder in true reverence before you often enough.  I am always coming with my needs and my wants, desiring that You make my life easier and more comfortable.  How selfish can I be?  I am here now because I am hurting inside - not knowing what to do or not to do.  Turn my thoughts away from myself.  Cause my spirit to burst forth in praise to You.

 

2.  O that all people would come to you in prayer.  For you do hear every cry, whether it be audible or just a moan in our spirits.

 

3.  You are the ultimate of compassion.  When we go our own ways, not thinking before we speak or act, You forgive and cleanse us.  Thank you.  Jesus has made full atonement for all our sin – past, present, and future.  Praise God

 

4.  I choose to come near to dwell in Your presence.  I know you will satisfy my heart, fill me with Your goodness.  Enable me to focus on You and not my puny problems

 

5.  Your words and actions are fearful and terrify those who do not know You.  But because we know each other You cause my heart to sing Your praises.  You fill me with gladness.  You are my hope and confidence.  In You I choose to trust.

 

6.  Surely You, who made the mountains, can handle things here for me.  You stilled the stormy sea with your voice.  Now still the storm within me today.

 

7-8. I know You do not want Your beloved ones to live in fear of Your power.  Your presence makes the morning and evenings shout for joy.  Hallelujah!  Amen!

 

9.  You saturate the earth to enrich it.  You are the river of Life – living water for our spirits, the Bread of Life for our sustenance. 

 

10.  You carefully tend the fields that we may have food for our bodies, but even more important is the provision for our spirits.

 

11.  You have crowned my years with Your bounty; with physical and spiritual goodness

 

12.  My pastures are luxuriant, dripping with moisture and filled with joy.

 

13.  May I shout for joy at Your faithfulness to this lowly servant.  May we sing together with love for one another.  

Sunday, February 7, 2021

Purification and Hope in Christ (I John 3:2-3)

Mom's journal,  February 2, 2010  

I John 3:2-3 (Amplified)  

2  Beloved (Jean), we are now God's children;  it is not yet disclosed (made clear) what we shall be (hereafter), but we know that when He comes, and is manifested, we shall resemble and be like Him, for we shall see Him just as He really is.  

3  And everyone who as this HOPE (resting) on Him, cleanses (purifies) himself just as He is pure (chaste, undefiled, and guiltless).  


Jesus, I praise and thank you for this Hope - that one day we will be like you.  The only way I am able to cleanse and purify myself is to allow Your Spirit who lives in me to cleanse me.  It is Your shed blood that washes away the sins, guilt, and shame and makes me acceptable in Your eyes.  

May I allow Your Spirit free reign and control.  May I hear You when You speak truth to me, when You point out the error of my ways, that I may be cleansed and purified as I  come into the presence of Our Father together.  You have given me the robe of Your Holy Righteousness.  I do not fully understand,but You have said it and I believe you.  

Sunday, March 18, 2018

Sing with the Spirit and Understanding



Monday, October 30, 2006  From a study on worship from Jack Hayford's book "A Heart of Praise"

Psalm 47:6-7  “Sing praises to God, sing praises! Sing praises to our King, sing praises! For God is the King over all of the earth; sing praises in a skillful psalm, and with understanding.”

I Cor 14:15  “I will sing with the spirit and I will also sing with understanding.”

How often do we merely mouth the words without ritual understanding?  Certainly in our worship leaders we need to cultivate our best talents and hone our skills, but we need the Holy Spirit’s enablement and sensitivity in understanding.  That causes our song to soar.  It can then flow to God’s honor and glory through a dedicated single-minded heart and not through a technically accurate, but double-minded musician whose spirit is not in tune with the Spirit.

Our singing in a worship service is not a preliminary “warm up” to the main event called a sermon.  It is an integral part of the worship, made vibrantly alive in us as we sing with the Spirit and with understanding. 

Psalm 30:11-12
Psalm 33: 1-5
Isaiah 12
Acts 16: 25-34

Sunday, March 11, 2018

Worship and the Meaning of Life



Friday, October 27, 2006  From a study on worship from Jack Hayford's book "A Heart of Praise"

Psalm 90:12  “So teach us (me) to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.”

When life seems hard, defeating, unfulfilling, and aimless, we must be as honest in our prayers as the psalmist was.  Cry out to God, not in dark unbelief, but in the light of HOPE.  Worship God!

The fact that our heart isn’t overflowing with blessings or abundance need not be a hindrance to our worship.  We should never stay away from our public, or private, worship because ‘we don’t feel like worshiping.’

Even in the dark times we must realize the vast power of worship to give our lives meaning and purpose.  If we surrender to the liar who is veiled in feelings of despair and aimlessness, we will bow before hopelessness, exchanging the Almighty God for a lesser god.

When we worship God even in despair, we defy the enemy and declare our valuing of the good, the best – the Lord.  There is no more worthy purpose to praise and no more worthy time for it. 

In worship of our Lord putting God first enables us to focus on His Love, our blessings, instead of temporary feelings of despair.

The despairing moments will pass.  We will overcome by remaining in God’s presence.  In our times of confusion and aimlessness, remember that the power of worshiping in the darkness will enable us to order our days aright and to finish them, not with a sigh, but with a SHOUT.

Lord, grant me, as I praise You, a vision of who I am and what I am to do.  Enable me to order my days in ways that glorify Your name, and even when I cannot see my way, to trust Your providence. 

In Jesus, my Lord! Amen